tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33594061595058061882024-03-20T03:06:30.132-07:00The long weightAfter many years of wrestling with the idea, I decided on lap band surgery. This is my journey.
From frustration to fear this was not an easy decision for me and now that the journey is underway, it is still not an easy decision. But it is my decision.
I began my research years ago but fear kept me from going any further than reading about my options. I did my research, I know it will not be easy. But I am ready.Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-12409140046402633472012-06-16T22:19:00.003-07:002012-06-16T22:22:50.959-07:00Ready to rumble!After a long long absence, I am posting. More to get my head in the game again. It has been a long year and I have gone up and down, but mostly I have been stuck. I hit the perfect restriction and was doing wonderfully and then I got a piece of meat stuck... really stuck. After spending the night vomitting everything I attempted to put in, including water, I called off work and called my doc. He said come right down and see him. I did. The result was the withdrawl of all 7.5 ml of fluid from my band. Recommended 6 weeks with no restriction and then the repeat of sssslllloooow addition of fluid over many many months. I am frustrated and have decided that I am going to kick some hiney this summer and get back on track. So I put this out there into bloggerland. I am ready to rumble!Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-73743826240302312052011-03-30T19:44:00.000-07:002011-03-30T19:44:49.574-07:00Rough weekThank you for the positive comments. I really needed them. I have some stuff going on (husband going back to work after being laid off for 5 months, babysitter not available, job drama - renovations- possible furloughs - and I will not be able to change positions which I have been counting on for 3 years (devastating news for me), baseball season is here and I have 5 (yes I said 5) boys - that's alot of practices and games, meetings 2 days a week until 6, several students that are struggling and I am running out of ideas to try to reach them.) and it is a very rough week. I really need to get all this under control. I know I will persevere but right now I am feeling like I am being hit from all sides and it is all I can do to not throw my arms up in front of my face, curl into a ball and cry. I am going to refocus all my energy back toward my family and my job until this all settles down. I know that I need to put myself first sometimes but right now is not that time. I will post again when I resurface.......Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-3142607932947026762011-03-28T20:14:00.000-07:002011-03-28T20:15:21.514-07:00still wonderingI am almost a month into this adventure and I am still wondering if I did the right thing. I get my first fill the end of next week. I hope that helps change my perspective. I think I am just frustrated because I spent the last week in the throws of a pms gnash. I wanted to eat 24/7. I made some discoveries... I can eat anything and as much as I want with no ill effects at this point. Not a good discovery.. I refuse to get on the scale because I don't want to know what damage I inflicted. Yes I know I am a coward but I also know what I can handle at this point. So did I make the right choice? I don't know. Ten days ago I was feeling good about all this.... now not so much.Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-54083949324182985562011-03-27T13:27:00.000-07:002011-03-27T13:27:37.416-07:00The American Cancer Society - 2011 Relay For Life of Venango County:<a href="http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY11?sid=1059&type=fr_informational&pg=informational&fr_id=30950&first_name=Tracy&last_name=Miller-Heasley&cons_id=20014403&sms_ss=blogger&at_xt=4d8f9dad17f97a2e%2C0">The American Cancer Society - 2011 Relay For Life of Venango County:</a>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-33530049219794477822011-03-22T18:19:00.000-07:002011-03-22T18:19:02.919-07:00keep still and breath<span style="color: #b6d7a8;">Keep still and breath is the advice a good friend gave me today when she called and found me in a tizzy.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #b6d7a8;">First day back to work was good but this week is turning out to be a very stressful one. I had a meeting after work until 6:30, making today an 11 hour work day. Got home and husband is in pain (think it is kidney stones - what to do?), First grader threw up right before dismissal and had to be picked up because the school didn't want to put him on the bus, and I have a 5 year old that is supposed to go to kindergarten registration tomorrow. And I have another meeting on Thursday that lasts until 5:30.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #b6d7a8;">I need to clone myself. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #b6d7a8;">With the Mr sick, the first grader sick, and me having limited sick time (since I was just off a couple weeks for my surgery) I don't know how I am going to get my 5 yr old registered for kindergarten. I can't really take any more time off. My sub has been placed for the rest of the year in another classroom. The first grader needs to stay home, their dad needs to stay home or go to the doctor or something, so now I have some things to figure out.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #b6d7a8;">Yes I need to be still and breath because tomorrow I am going to be running in a thousand different directions.</span>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-7205467806571854092011-03-20T19:27:00.000-07:002011-03-20T19:29:38.776-07:00Back to work tomorrow<span style="color: #9fc5e8;">I have to go back to work tomorrow and I really would rather not. I have been teaching for 17 years, had 5 children and took a leave with each. I never wanted to stay home as much as I do now. I don't know why returning is so different this time, and it was a shorter leave than when I had the boys. I have enjoyed being home with my boys so much and the idea of leaving them to go teach other people's children makes me kinda sad. I do think my first graders are special and I have missed them, but I knew they were in very capable hands.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #9fc5e8;">My back to work worries.....</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> How do I get enough to drink unless I drink in front of my students</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> No eating in front of them so I am going to have to </span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> sneak protein drinks (YUK) for "snacks"</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> Packing the 'right stuff' for lunch</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> I am going to be tired without my coffee</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> Still limited to 10 pounds lifting and my school bag is heavier than </span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> that (I had a hernia repaired when I was banded)</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> Maybe the kids liked the sub better than me ( I know I shouldn't </span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> care but I do) She IS wonderful.</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> Hope the kids were good and I am not returning to any new problems</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> The waistband of my pants irritates the almost healed incision at my port site</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> I am going to miss my own children like crazy!!!!!</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> I have SSSSOOOOOOO much paperwork to get caught up on</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> I'm going to miss my Mr.</span><br />
<span style="color: #9fc5e8;"> I have to get up at 5:30 ... What if I sleep thru my alarm</span><br />
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<span style="color: #9fc5e8;">I know I am over-emotional. It goes along with this time of the month (OH and that is late! and I am NOT pg - I guess it the "stress" I put my body thru this month and not being around any females in about 3 weeks - got my hormones all out of whack - Wonder if this is common.)</span>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-37988104535179936412011-03-18T20:15:00.000-07:002011-03-18T21:23:46.642-07:00How much do you weigh Mommy?<strong><span style="color: #ffd966;">That is what my just turned 5 yr old asked me after all the boys had taken a turn on the scale. We had made the 5 yr old get weighed to make sure he wasn't losing weight (he just had his tonsils out a week ago). As usual, the boys (I have 5) and my Mr each took a turn. I answered, "35 pounds". They looked at me kinda funny but no one had the nerve to ask except the 5 yr old. He said "nu-uh. Mommy, how much?". I then told them. "Mommy won't tell you what she weighs until she is ready to, but I will tell you I have lost 35 pounds and I worked very hard to lose each one of them. They seemed ok with that answer.</span></strong><br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaaGW4l9F7mZiGUJfPkgBz9b9CNmJy-J6pekwIptQAhENvyidFTXJCi-n_JvKWukb33aqro-DgVAbcM8OZrvd16IHR1Ee1G8ClxRjlmH4gwjcj1BO4KDhlPoVG0mBAzoMZjjP79yaPFHA/s1600/009.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="150" r6="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaaGW4l9F7mZiGUJfPkgBz9b9CNmJy-J6pekwIptQAhENvyidFTXJCi-n_JvKWukb33aqro-DgVAbcM8OZrvd16IHR1Ee1G8ClxRjlmH4gwjcj1BO4KDhlPoVG0mBAzoMZjjP79yaPFHA/s200/009.JPG" width="200" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I lost an entire Sammy!</td></tr>
</tbody></table><strong><span style="color: #ffd966;">I got to thinking after that. When they were taking turns on the scale, my 3 yr old weighed 33 lbs. I have lost an entire Sammy! When I think about it that way, it is an amazing accomplishment.</span></strong><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #ffd966;">So tell me why I do not see any difference. I haven't changes size in anything. I haven't noticed any difference in my appearance, not even my face which is usually the first place I notice weight fluctuations. Not in the fit of my rings, which is another place I usually notice an early difference. </span></strong><br />
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<strong><span style="color: yellow; font-size: large;">My question is... how much before you started to notice a change in yourself?</span></strong>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-42139126158603079842011-03-17T14:14:00.000-07:002011-03-17T16:31:01.127-07:00I did it.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>On March 1st 2011, I had surgery to have a hernia repaired and have a lap band put in. I was scared. Truly terrified. But I DID IT!!!!</b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #f4cccc;"><b> I had battled paperwork for months and was at the point of giving up when I got the call and was scheduled.</b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>The surgery was not as bad as I had anticipated. The first few days were rough. The 2nd week much easier. I now only have any discomfort when I sneeze or cough hard. It feels like I can feel the stitches, those holding the port in place and those at the hernia repair, pulling harshly on the muscle. Ouch!</b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>I had 2 weeks of phase 1 (liquids) and am now on phase 2 Doc told me anything pureed and soft foods. I feel very little restriction at all (I won't have my first fill until April 5th). I have to be careful not to eat too much (because I still can) and watch both protien and calorie intake.</b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>I am getting excited about the possibility of what is to come.</b></span>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-15908304833660078092010-12-19T14:30:00.000-08:002010-12-19T14:36:45.743-08:00Waiting stillI have finished all of my testing and appointments, as well as 6 months of Dr. supervised, and am still waiting. Seems my doc didn't send her paperwork in to the surgeon and they "forgot" about me for a while. If I hadn't called to find out what the delay was, I may have been waiting forever. As it is now, they got a hold of my doc and then they had to submit everything to my insurance. So I wait again for the surgeon's office to hear back from the insurance and contact me with a surgery date. Do they not realize I am getting frustrated with this whole process? I actually have had some moments where I wonder about whether I am doing the right thing. I guess that is normal but I am not used to being unsure. I have always been someone who made up my mind about what I wanted and went and got it. This waiting and waiting have given me too much time to ponder without action. Please let them hurry. I am tired of waiting.Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3359406159505806188.post-51253658039634254492010-11-30T21:07:00.000-08:002011-03-18T12:51:34.567-07:00The long weight<a href="http://mylongweight.blogspot.com/">The long weight</a>:<span style="color: #ffd966;"> "<span style="font-size: 130%;">After many years of wrestling with the idea, I decided on lap band surgery. This is my journey. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;"></span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;">From frustration to fear this was not an easy decision for me and now that the journey is underway, it is still not an easy decision. But it is my decision. </span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;"></span><br />
<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;">I began my research years ago but fear kept me from going any further than reading about my options. What would people say? Is it safe? Is it a cop out?"</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;">I was at the doctor one day and she actually brought the subject up. We discussed options that day and she signed me up for an informational session where I could learn more and ask my millions of questions.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;">I did ask questions - Lots of them. and I went back to my dr and talked some more with her. Turns out she had been in my shoes. She knows how frustrating it is to lose 20 pounds only to regain 35 over and over. Being tired, feeling frustrated, battling her weight. She herself had weight loss surgery. (She had bypass) . I told her that was too extreme for me. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #ffd966; font-size: 130%;">I have a family that I am the main income for and as the mom of 5, I was worried about complications. She agreed with me that of the options lap band seemed the most responsible choice for me. Turns out living at this weight is more risky than having lap band surgery.</span>Tracyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09539742475656379828noreply@blogger.com0